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I read about random people, writing about their random, spectacular lives.
Most of them are college kids, still living off their parents' money.
I wish..
I wish...
Suddenly I think I grew up too soon.
Like what the hell, I'm already twenty-four as I'm typing now.
And I'm expected to make a living, out of my measly pay check.
I wonder how my old folks did it during their time.
Like save enough to bring up 2 kids, live in a home, able to afford transportations, and also spoil us with good stuffs sometimes.
Gah! I don't want to grow up. Like live off my parents until I'm ready.


It does make a difference, do you know?
For example, the shampoo you use. When you stay at home, you "tekan", "tekan" and "tekan" for any amount you want to apply on your parts of the body. Why? Because you don't give a damn how much it cost your dad/mum to buy that bottle of shampoo.
Now, living on my own, you have to purchase your own bottle of shampoo. Every time you squeeze something out of the bottle, it's a fraction of what you've paid. And also, because when it's finished, when you have blanched the insides with pipe water hoping to squeeze everything in the contents, it's time to fork out more money to purchase another bottle of shampoo.
All on your very own expense.


Like maha expensive, you know?


Okay, clearly an entry on my soon-to-be-finished bottle of shampoo. Very expensive one you know..

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HuiChing, SheaTeng, AiTing, KahKheng, TzeYang, ShiouTing and Me

It's Monday, woke up extra early to have breakfast with the missus and also to fetch her to work. I don't get to enjoy that anymore, now that I have an unpredictable work schedule and the traffic in LDP is worsen by the day. Most of the road users have got out from the city, maybe taking advantage of the school holidays, thus taking more leaves to celebrate the Chinese's New Year. I would have done that too, if it wasn't because of my parents who aren't around at home. Felt pointless to go back to an empty home, so decided to just go back when they are back instead. Unfortunately, working on a Monday (cum Pre-Holiday) is just plain blah.

Anyway, managed to meet up with the ex-UTPians last night. Oh wait, before I do forget, it has been raining the whole of the entire day last night. Also the day before. And this morning. I wonder what has gone wrong with the weather these days. How can it be raining the whole day, no surprise on the flood down south reported today. Had an intellectual conversation with the UTPians last night. I guess our pace is too fast? Talking about properties and Forex exchange at this age? My boss is right. 1980's babies, have very fast pace. We have to have our own space to grow. No restrictions or limitations. He also mentioned that 1980's babies are not afraid of their superiors. Unlike our fore fathers. Yeah, whatever he was trying to imply.

We spend about 4 hours in Chillis, just to catch up. Everyone's doing good, apparently. It's true what they say, UTP graduates are good, in making a living. But sometimes, I wish we were still back in campus. There were talks to organize "Little Genting", one of our rituals during CNY in UTP. It was easier then. Everyone was so much closer. Just a GTALK status, we would wind up in someone's room for a good night out. Now, everyone is so far apart, with own commitments and issues.

Gawd, someone even brought up the marriage issue. Thank goodness I've done my time. :P

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So last night I spend an hour at Borders, trying to see what I could buy. I knew that Teohlogy, written by Patrick Teoh was going to be in my to-buy list as soon as I read from his blog: http://niamah.blogspot.com; that he was going to release a book.
I have heard about him, decades ago. Long when he was Radio4's DJ then. His coarse voice over the radio waves were easily recognizable everytime my parents tune into that particular channel. I hear he speaks over the radio, even before I attended primary school. I'm someone who's interested in the country's progress but never got the chance to do anything to fix the current situation. Perhaps I'm like the rest of the people here: the Tidak Apa attitude,as long as can make money. I read a few chapters now, and I can totally relate to what he has written, 5 years ago.

Nothing much has changed since. Nothing will ever. I guess the Tidak Apa attitude is still embraced.


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I think I need a break.
From all the constant travelling on the road.
Yesterday, I came into work, feeling blur. A couple of emails were waiting for me, and I was trying to make sense of the drawings sent to me, in AutoCad. You know how those drawings are, with uncountable lines (don't forget the hidden ones too!)..and I always try NOT to ignore important lines on the drawings because for all I know, it could be something major on the structure itself.
I read the email statements, and it clearly stated that it's urgent, and has to go back to the client on the very same day.

So, I struggled. Trying to comprehend the drawings, making sense out of it, as well as trying to do my own drawings and also hopefully be able to come out with what was needed. Halfway doing it, I went online surfing, mind wandered, until another senior came to ask me to amend some other drawings and I totally forgot about my original task. So I went home, had dinner with the missus and then got an email notification. Apparently my senior send a back up plan to the client, which was supposedly my task. And then it struck me. Bad.
I forgot about it, totally.

Trust me, that was equivalent to getting hard cold lashing from anyone.

Sometimes, I get on the road, my mind wandered, and suddenly I forgot that I was driving. I'm not kidding. It's like for a minute, I can feel the wheel in my hands, and I would go like "Oh, I'm driving." Mind wandering can be pretty scary, come to think of it.

I wonder if that's how I got involved in an accident that day.

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There are just too many backdated pictures in my phone at the moment, and would really love to post them here. Somehow, the task of having to transfer them to my computer AND THEN upload the pictures here, can be..(insert correct adjective here).

I have been writing a lot, mainly posting short, simple facebook statuses here and there. I doubt anyone would still be reading my blog entries now..I don't really write anything constructive anymore, except to whine..about things..

If you are wondering, I still go for my little eating excursions now and then. Try to keep out from the Luxurious restaurants, and even the ones in the malls, with the rise of the Government tax.
CNY around the corner, initially I thought that I was going to work throughout the celebration week, but it turns out that there will be slight delays, which means everything has been pushed forward to god knows when, but not CNY. Which also means I would have the time to be home, for a few rounds of card games, drinks and (insert correct entertainments!)

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First, it was the scorching hot sun.
And then it was the heavy rain.

The weather here is unpredictable, pretty more or less like the instructions we get, from the Clients.
Text messages and emails, requested us to standby at 7am, and we only managed to start our job at 10pm.
That's after the blazing hot sun, the heavy wet rain.

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Do I ask questions, a lot?
I'm offended. Sometimes, I am.


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I was away for work, since Tuesday, and it felt really really long.

Clad in my coveralls, I can't help but feel like a bangla worker. Although most of the time, I'm only there to observe, gain experience, but I can't help but feel that perhaps, the commoners were right. This field, simply isn't a girl's playground. Sometimes, only sitting around, waiting for the operators to do their work, can be equally exhausting and tiring. My limited patience is also a factor. Waiting while doing nothing, really kills me, slowly from the inside. During operations, the supervisor in charged would buy food for the workers, including the engineers on duty. Eating out of the polystyrene box, (sometimes no spoon is provided;thus use your vivid imagination!), with no proper place to sit, and not surprising the condition of Lumut (you technically have to eat with flies!)..I feel like just like a bangla worker. [okay, no offence to Banglas, but you get my drift right?] Most of the time, I question myself, if this is what I want; if this is worth the UV rays.

For this operation, I had to be in the field for almost 12 hours straight. I see the (fucking!) hot sun, until they had to use the aid of spot lights for work. Is this what I want? As soon as the day light is gone, and the entire yard is only lighted up by spot light, I felt helpless. Surrounded with men, I felt like my safety parameter is almost gone.

Am I whining like a small kid? No. Because this is how I feel.

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If you think food is expensive, think again. Even cutting down weight, can be expensive too. I was in 1U last weekend, when I walked past the Exercise Accessories shop. I saw racks of dumb bells with different weights available. I have always wanted to buy the weights, and actually train to shed some fats around the arms, but because of the atrocious price, I always put the idea off.
Well, part of it, because I didn't want to leave 1U without purchasing anything (impulse purchases, you see) so I decided to just screw it, and walked out from the shop with 2 additional 6lbs with me. For extra weights, it cost me about RM50+.

To shed unnecessary fats, can be a difficult task. Considering the money I'd have to pay, to eat healthy food even though in substantial amount yet it's still costly; joining a gym in Malaysia, seems to be more of a luxury than a necessity, as well as the limited time we have in a day, after work, especially. Well, there you go. My (forever!) New Year's Resolution for 2011 at the age of 23 going to 24.

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Times has changed.

Back then, when I was still a young kid, mum used to say that when I grow up, I should work with a company who provides you a company car. Because then, dad was provided with a company car to travel about, and I guess, being an Engineer, that's the nature of his work. However, now, when I've started working, and was given the privilege of a company car, my mum went all.., "Hah..why give lauya car one? Cheh."
When I was younger, when laptops just started making their way to the market, dad was given a personal computer and a palm top, due to his nature of work. These days, when I told her that I'm given a personal laptop as well, mum would say, "Aiya, laptop only mah. So common." I thought she told me that it would be good if my future company would provide me with a personal laptop.

My point is, times has definitely changed. In the past, benefits such as company cars and personal laptops seem to be THE thing, but now, whenever I say to my mum, she would shrug them off. Anyway, I guess it's always difficult to please the older generations, especially my mum. So there you go..

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How can one move out of a relationship so quickly?
It makes you think, doesn't it? That the relationship before, didn't really matter eh. All the talks about the future spent together, the money saved together, the dreams built on sand castles (imaginary ones!)..suddenly it became nothing. Because you can simply jump from one relationship to the other.
And then build similar dreams with the other person..and then..you move onto another relationship and build similar dreams.

Never ending vicious cycle.

Don't give me crap about how that would numb the heart ache, because seriously, I don't think so. I read about stories on how people move on, so easily, that it's nauseating to continue reading. ANYMORE.

Wow, that's just what I needed. A minute worth of venting. Back to my work then.