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I think we all have to learn to make mistakes, before knowing the difference between right or wrong.

Ever since the time I could remember clearly, my dad have always told me that I am someone who would not be able to embrace failure lightly. I used to disregard that comment, but as I grew older, I begin to take his words seriously.

I begin to think, that I, might just be someone who's "kiasu". If you can see closely, my name could just be in between the words "kiasu" and "kiasi".

I have people telling me that I am someone who would take the less risks in life. I have been cushioned in the comfort zone, experiencing the most minimum impact of life, and friends who know me for 5 years, could see through that.

One of the questions asked by an interview to me recently, "How would you deal with an angry customer?", to which I replied, "Erm, I have not dealt with one before.". This question made me think for the longest 2 minutes in my life, because in my mind, I kept scanning for senarios that I have faced throughout my life, that I might have encountered an angry friend, or angry colleague, but nope, I have not faced such situations before.
At that time, I felt like the most unexperienced human on earth. How could I not have handled an angry senario before? Well, my mum doesn't count, though I have pissed her off countlessly.

Then I realized..I realized that I was such a loser, that I have prevented all these negative circumstances from happening at all. And my friend, this is not a good virtue. Being a cautious risk-taker is not advisable at all, because then, life would be pretty much stagnant.

So when I was given a choice for a career change, many would have predicted that I would remain in the current company because of its benefits, and the stability of the company in terms of income, projects, etc. It felt like I am just a transparent glass that people could see me through because of the decision they think I would make.

But no, I think it's about time I grow up and take another path. I'm leaving my comfort zone, because I think it's wrong to be stagnant at this young age.
It is not going to be easy though, considering I'm leaving a good company, a good boss, and a good bunch of colleagues whom I have made friends in a short period of time. Not forgetting the long working hours in the new company, and the urm..unpleasant employee benefits..I am taking a very heavy, big step this time around.

And now, the hardest thing is to say goodbye.