As I was browsing through the missus' old photos, (unfortunately some, with her ex-better halves then), made me realize that actually the person up there, has a very peculiar way of arranging us to meet one another. Looking at her old pictures, I wouldn't have guessed that she would turn out to be such a feminine person now. And perhaps, her evolution to becoming who she is now, has given her such a drastic change, that I actually am thankful we met now, instead. No, I'm not someone who judge the other person solely based on their external appearances, but don't deny that it plays a certain importance in the choices I make. Looking back at MY old pictures, I don't deny, that I've changed somewhat in terms of my appearance, and recalling back, I think I have changed in terms of my decision-making, thoughts and controlling of my emotions.
I have gone through a lot, in the past. Numerous (failed!) relationships, and thank god, for each time I felt a heart burn, I thought I could have just died then. But I did not. I wouldn't say I learn, but I guess it's because I've seen so much, that I'm beginning to see the bigger picture, even much clearer now. And from the missus' part, her past relationships have also made her a different person, and I guess, the timing has never been better!
I have gone through a lot, in the past. Numerous (failed!) relationships, and thank god, for each time I felt a heart burn, I thought I could have just died then. But I did not. I wouldn't say I learn, but I guess it's because I've seen so much, that I'm beginning to see the bigger picture, even much clearer now. And from the missus' part, her past relationships have also made her a different person, and I guess, the timing has never been better!
She came into my last stage of University life, when I'm preparing to graduate and enter the working cycle. I won't deny I have to make decisions which I am not proud of, as an individual, but sometimes, work is just work; in the end, it's how and who you want to lead your life that matters.
Coming Monday, it's going to be our 1-year anniversary, and I wouldn't have imagined that I could make it in this relationship this far, and yet still feel so much in love. (Though we have our own dark days, but what's a little healthy bickering for a young couple eh?) The reason why I'm writing this entry, is not to wish her a Happy Anniversary but actually to note down, how much I've actually grown up in relationships. I won't deny that sometimes, I'm afraid that we would not be able to last for eternity, but I've learned that relationships come from lotsa dedication from both parties.
I love you.
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