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This 1-week notice thing is really getting on my nerves.
I think I can't blame the management though, because maybe they would need 1 week to look for replacement, or to hand over existing work and information to the person who is going to replace me.
But, the biggest problem is, I have not been handling anything serious for the past 3 months, and because I was a junior when they hired me, so I had seniors above me looking into matters, so to summarize everything, what I've been doing has not much significance to the company, thus WHY, DO I HAVE TO SERVE MY ONE-WEEK NOTICE?

Not only does it make this good-bye issue even tougher, plus I'm wasting my 9 hours doing absolutely NOTHING besides surfing mindlessly, chatting nonsensical issues, and also, yes, do not forget the existence of might o' facebook! Today is a bit different though, because today, I took the initiative to study a bit on AUTOCAD 3D so that at least, I learn something useful that I could utilize in my new work place.

My boss just got back to work today, and I find it very difficult to look at him, straight into the eyes. Call me a wuss, but seriously, I feel all guilty about having to leave the company within just 3 months of service. I know, some may have an entire different opinion: "It's your life! Your career! Your development! If you don't like what you are doing, you can just pack up and go!" ..but it's not really that easily done than said, because you develop human feelings towards the office employees, your ever-so-attentive bosses, your colleagues whom you have grown accustomed to talking online, having lunches with, and even your cafeteria food..all these over the period of 3 months. I can say, I am someone who's full of silly emotions!
And let's not forget the ample of times the boss talked to me about being patient, being all curious to learn more about construction..and suddenly, after 3 months before confirmation, I dropped the bomb. Imagine all the hopes he must have had inside him. (wow, this is getting way out of hand!)..but you get the point!

What was even more touching was he knew, well, the department knew about my dilemma and yet, they did not say anything much, just asking me to try, try and try, and take my time to find myself. Sigh, and I just gave up in the middle of the race. Heck, looking back I wasn't sure if it was a race to begin with..and because it wasn't as challenging as I have pictured, I decided to quit. I feel like a big fool right now. As everyone around me has their own individual task, I am sitting here, serving my time, before being a free woman next Monday. I can't imagine the agony of having to serve a 1-month notice for some of my friends. Hell, my future employers have the policy of 3-month notice should I decide to leave. This is fucking agonizing!

I feel like I can put my 9 hours for a better usage, like perhaps spending time with my new toy. The new FZ100-Lumix with a 24x Optical Zoom, Leica Lens. I have not played with it properly, to play with its aperture and shutter speed, and all kinds of preset modes available..and it came with a 8gb memory space, and a free tripod which is still nicely intact in its packaging box. All that, and still I have not explored it properly yet. I feel like a whimp! I brought it to Starbucks SS2 a few days back though, tried to explore between the difference of ISO and apperture but you know how I get distracted easily, and for a good reason though. The Caramel Frap is simply too irresistable to actually focus on my FZ100 too much. Hmmm...FZ100...Caramel Frap..FZ100..Caramel Frap...Caramel Frap...Whipped cream...Caramel Frap...Hmm..you see! FZ100 was back into its case after merely 15 minutes of fiddling around. It must have felt like a bum, huh? and let's not even forget the woman who was sitting directly opposite me then. Why of course, the attention had to be given to her right? So now you know..there's not much time to spare for my new toy, with so much things (or person) in dire of my limited attention..

So now, there's this clearance form which is on my table, waiting to be completed, and the worst part is it requires the confirmation (or signature!) of my boss. And how can I possibly face him after I have crushed his hopes of training a young engineer before going to the site?
How? That would be simply inhumane, to kill a man's hopes and dreams..hehehe..ok, yet again, I've been lifted from reality..

This blog entry, has simply allocated me 10 minutes of pure sheer joy by just typing rampantly on the keyboard, in hopes that I look smart by doing so. I am starting to get tired of facebook, and I'm just twenty-three! Too much of leisure is really doing us young folks no good..