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Did not have a good night sleep last night.
What was supposed to be a good weekend, broke out to be a nasty fight. I don't remember hurling such hurtful words to anyone for the past 13 months. My roller coaster emotions are back, and for very obvious reasons, it changed me to another person.
Sometimes I try to control the things I say, due to the spur of the moment. But most of the time, I was too blinded with anger, that words come out almost instantly.
We made up, eventually, as the dawn was breaking in. I am glad that she understands but I will love to try controlling my anger and words.

I don't know what is wrong with me lately. Like I have lose touch with myself. Is it because they have put pressure on me, at work? Or is it because I feel like I have not enough time for myself?

I brought work home. For the weekend.
Most of the time, I try avoiding doing so. But the dateline is near. It's not so much about work, but it's about losing time for myself that is killing me slowly.

My 24th birthday has been a lonely one. The missus celebrated it with me, and don't get me wrong, I did enjoy myself. In fact, it felt too short, that one day just passed by, like that. However, I can't help but feel like I wished I was back in UTP. I still remember how my 23rd birthday was like. In a crowd. I guess I miss the presence of groups of people. I don't get much of that now, though. I blame it on my unbalanced working hours.

Or maybe I have slowly became a hermit, as time passes by.